I have been home for a while, I have had too much time to write. This is me communicating some of the lessons writing has led me to discover about the year. I am gonna direct them at myself, I have no intention of making this a distribution of advice.
I started this year thinking it will be my year of explosion. It turned out to be a year of a lot of learning. I have learnt that I could try to predict my year of explosion (it is as simple as calling a year irrespective of the probability of success) but I couldn’t call with all certain my year of explosion at least not by my capabilities
I should express the importance of the relationships I say matter to me. Not limited to this year, I have done a bad job at the expressing me the importance of my relationships and I have many times said “that is who I am“. Well alright, maybe that is who I am but that is definitely not who I want to be. I know well that what I am today isn’t what I have always been, I grew into it (even though I didn’t choose this). That is evidence that I can grow out of this and into something else and lucky for me I have power to choose now. I can’t give that excuse anymore.
I kind of replayed how the opportunity of time to spend with my parents has reduced over the years. I am moving to a phase of life where I will be thankful to be around them 3 weeks in a year. I really should utilize the time I have with them instead of keeping myself in the room for most of the day. I should create memories with them and learn from them (they are gems of experiential knowledge actually, another thing I have learnt). I want to minimize regret as much as I can.
Intellectual honesty. This year I really let the ‘fear‘ of how my truth is perceived control how I communicated it. It caused a lot of incoherence to my being, it was most stupid when what I said and what I thought were opposite things! I robbed myself of people’s response to the correctness of my truths, discussing the benefits of that I will be too long a writing but I could always have a conversation about it if your curiosity demands it. I also instigated battles within me. I should tell my truth or say nothing at all, that is good feat to attain
I am gonna keep other lessons for next week 😂😂. It has been a beautiful and interesting week for me. I recreated something from the combination of certain things I picked up from Chamath Palihapitiya and Paul Graham, these are two individuals I admire. What I recreated has been beautiful so far but then it has only been a week.
Peace!!
Proud of you and your work. It's beyond me to say keep it up but please permit me.
I think number 3 hit the most because I only got to see my sisters this week, since I left them in January. Crazy how this might be the norm until I'm done with school. So I intend to cherish every moment of this holiday spent with them...